My life's work is about...
The Cosmic Love Story-
The Eternal Mate
Formerly...
The Tonti Conection
By: A La Lansun

WHO AM I?

I have been virgin, wife and lover.

I have been a single parent with all the responsibilities this entails; self-supporting, menopausal, beloved and forgotten.

I have known love that transcends words.

I have felt the beckoning finger of self-destruction and the feeling of despair and inadequacy that is his Messenger.

I have laughed until I cried and cried until I laughed at my own foibles and self-delusions.

I have felt the earth groaning under the weight of humanity's spilled tears and blood; felt her agony induced by nuclear rending of her inner self.

I have wept over the pitiful carcass of someone's loved cat or dog rotting by the highway, and cursed the speed and indifference that put it there

I have known gut-knotting panic when my livelihood and that of my child were at stake.  When an antiquated and unjust economic juggernaut threatened to grind the soul out of me.

I have nurtured the young; understood the sprouting independent rebellion of the teens, and both loved and resented the old.

I have kicked off my shoes and dived in the pool of sexual freedom made so enticing today -- then alone in the night regained my center and realized the emptiness of the promise.

I have longed to fly and been forced to crawl.  Ached to express my inner being and been locked into roles by the needs of others.

I have been emotionaly numb from too much pressure -- and longed for such numbness from too much pain.

I have watched the flame in me flicker low from want of another's caring; felt it blaze into noonday brilliance in a tender moment of true meeting of hearts.

I have learned logic and reason and lost my heart's wisdom.  I have sought answers from experts and found empty cliche's.

I have burned bras to defy my biological prison.  Yet felt the deep contentment that only I can know when tiny hands move on my breast and an eager little mouth seeks life-giving nourishment from me.

I have resented man's illusion of superiority that creates acts of domination; yet felt ageless when I filled his deeper need of me.

I have packed away so many dreams and private hopes; thrown away others.  I have let some of my jewels slip through my fingers because I forgot who and what I Am.  And then painfully walked the inner path back to my center and met my own godhood.

I AM WOMAN!