Tuesday, February 16 2010
WHO AM I?
I have been virgin, wife and lover.
I have been a single parent with all the responsibilities this entails; self-supporting, menopausal, beloved and forgotten.
I have known love that transcends words.
I have felt the beckoning finger of self-destruction and the feeling of despair and inadequacy that is his Messenger.
I have laughed until I cried and cried until I laughed at my own foibles and self-delusions.
I have felt the earth groaning under the weight of humanity's spilled tears and blood; felt her agony induced by nuclear rending of her inner self.
I have wept over the pitiful carcass of someone's loved cat or dog rotting by the highway, and cursed the speed and indifference that put it there
I have known gut-knotting panic when my livelihood and that of my child were at stake. When an antiquated and unjust economic juggernaut threatened to grind the soul out of me.
I have nurtured the young; understood the sprouting independent rebellion of the teens, and both loved and resented the old.
I have kicked off my shoes and dived in the pool of sexual freedom made so enticing today -- then alone in the night regained my center and realized the emptiness of the promise.
I have longed to fly and been forced to crawl. Ached to express my inner being and been locked into roles by the needs of others.
I have been emotionaly numb from too much pressure -- and longed for such numbness from too much pain.
I have watched the flame in me flicker low from want of another's caring; felt it blaze into noonday brilliance in a tender moment of true meeting of hearts.
I have learned logic and reason and lost my heart's wisdom. I have sought answers from experts and found empty cliche's.
I have burned bras to defy my biological prison. Yet felt the deep contentment that only I can know when tiny hands move on my breast and an eager little mouth seeks life-giving nourishment from me.
I have resented man's illusion of superiority that creates acts of domination; yet felt ageless when I filled his deeper need of me.
I have packed away so many dreams and private hopes; thrown away others. I have let some of my jewels slip through my fingers because I forgot who and what I Am. And then painfully walked the inner path back to my center and met my own godhood.
I AM WOMAN!
Copyright (c) 2007 A La Lansun
Thursday, February 04 2010
THE TONTI CONNECTION - Part 1
Have you ever wished for a true companion who is also a secret love?
If your heart answers Yes!
On February 14, 1955 this message highlighted the deep, mysterious longing I had felt all my life, but never understood. It was to be a test of my abiity to hold immaculate a concept of the highest expression of the male principle of God in form. It demanded a razor's edge trust of the husband of my spirit whom I could neither see nor touch.
It brought intimate and personal access to this Principle of creation. An active, invisible partner who added the mental and emotional power resident in this expression of the godhead. He could "walk in" to physical form to provide an important lesson or supply much needed help in some way. At such times the absolute trust I felt through eye contact and the feeling of unconditional love clearly identified him to me.
So today I am speaking to Woman. Man's reach for such will be answered when he can accept Love's discipline as Woman leads the way. The Tonti Connection is open to every woman whose motive is of the highest good for all mankind. Open to the woman who has accepted her Soul's direction to fulfill her life's true purpose.
Now, after over half a century of silence, evidently there are such women among you and I am permitted to speak -- to you who are ready for unions divinely decreed so that such unified power is restored on earth and available when needed.
Listen within to confirm your identity.
Continued . . .
For The Tonti Connection Parts Two through Five click Blog. Also read The Hare: Greek Symbol of the Logos Incarnate
Copyright (c) 2010 A La' Lansun
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